I was having a hard time earlier, in pain, emotional because I was feeling like a burden, stress from my school work .. etc.
My Dr. appointment went well. She (Dr. O'Neill) said that 1 in 10 gene carriers that come in for a mastectomy, like myself, come up with cancer, even after all of the other tests that said otherwise. So this was amazing news! Part of what gets me through this is knowing I don't have to go through chemo or possibly radiation during my mastectomy healing time. That's strength right there.
I talked to my sis today; haven't since the day before surgery. She lives in Washington and she also had breast cancer and BRCA 1 +. That lightened my mood. :-) Even though her surgeries were quite a few years ago and things have changed, the amount of pain and discomfort remains the same. I was trying to explain to her that I am not quite flat chested. I would consider myself similar to a chunky 11 year old boy cleavage :P . We also joke about the range of arm movement. Not being able to reach above you or extend your arm is like being a T-Rex. It makes me giggle everytime instead of being upset when I can't reach something.
I am completely ready for the rest of my drains to be removed. I feel like I have a alien baby under my shirt with these two bulbs protruding out. They are so gross too. When they are removed it is just one step closer to being done! It a long road so I am making small goals.
FINALLY, I got my hair washed earlier today! It was so wonderful. I went to a salon to have them wash it since they have those lean back chairs. I was re-energized plus it was only $4. so I will be going back a few times!
Like I said, little by little, I'm getting closer to the end and I am cherishing every step toward comfort.
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