Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Anxious and Excited!

The countdown has really begun, 3 more days until surgery!  Wow, I just got some butterflies when I wrote THREE days.  I have enough to keep me busy, though.  It is finals week at school and I will be graduating on the 17th too!  December marks the end of two huge journeys for me!  My PBM journey and my long journey of going to school!  Beyond excited!!! 

I keep growing anxious about going under anesthesia for surgery; I have to think that I will have an EKG and my heart will be fine to live another day.  Some things I am so pessimistic about.  I also think that this surgery is similar to child birth.  Giving birth is not fun, horribly painful, gross .. the whole 9 but this dreadful moment in your life you forget because of all of the positive that comes out of it.  I remember the pain of last surgery but I am so excited to get this done that it isn't much of a concern.  I know that the pain won't be nearly what it was and I am hoping that I will regain a lot of movement at a quicker pace.  I know not to over do it, which is going to be difficult because of the holidays, but I will manage!

My other concern is an infection.  I hope and pray that I do not get an infection again.  I see my infectious disease Dr. tomorrow to go over my blood work to ensure there is no signs of infection.  I am positive that it will all be alright but the frustration of that whole process will suck if I have to do it again.  Send me happy thoughts, please!

I had to just get this out of my head - whew!  lol 

Until next time ...

1 comment:

  1. Sooooooo happy for you!! :) Mines are settling well.... well sort of. I guess one of the sutures popped so the shape isn't perfect although the doctors and everyone else think they look great!, which is a good thing. I think they look good too but just not as perfect as I wanted.

    I hope everything goes well for you! This surgery is def. a piece of cake compare to what we went through before. I bet you'll be so happy to end this journey!! :D

    Congrats on the graduation, too!! :)

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