Friday, April 5, 2013

Waiting for my IV drip to stop

Its late here and I am very tired but I have to sit here and give myself these antibiotics.  I have only been doing this for a week and I am frustrated with it.  I had my infectious disease appointment today, my culture and CT scan came back normal (YAY), my white blood cells are good, there are a few others that are normal but my blood work shows there is still infection.  My Vancomycin levels were low so the Dr. increased my daily intake.  I will give myself 3 IVs of that and 2 of my other meds.  That is 4 hours being strapped to a tubes!  There is no way I can return to work with having to take this med in the middle of the day.  I guess that is the bittersweet part of the deal lol . 

I also had my physical therapy appointment today, it went really well!  I feel stronger and able to move more.  I think part of my lack of movement is fear; fear that it will hurt or tear something.  I can definitely feel the expander under my skin when my muscles flex, its more awkward that painful.  I just need to get in my head that this is the new, temporary, normal.  I even walked over a mile today!  I can walk more than a mile but with the lack of energy I have because of the meds, I am just too tired to really push it.. but not today! 

Yes, I have an infection, but I have the means to get the medicine.  The medicine is time consuming, but it isn't chemo therapy.  Yes, I have the BRCA 1 mutation, but I have the support and opportunity to fight for my life before any cancer could grow.  I do not have breasts, but I think my little foobies are too cute!  I have humor in my life and I do not have cancer in my life... I do not and will not get breast cancer. 

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